Hey you

hey you.

yeah you, the one reading this line:

Can you honestly say that you are living a meaningful life, or does it seem to drift day by day swirling into the drain?

In your day, what do you do? and does it really matter in the long run of things?

What are you planning tomorrow? and does it make a difference?

How many minutes go by before you realised that you've wasted some?

I was just wondering, if one little striped fish decided to swim away from the school and the norm would it make a difference?

Maybe not to us. We dont care about what happens to most other people, let alone a fishes.

So what would happen if just for today you did something different, something others thought weird or strange?

Would it start a chain reaction if someone saw you doing something different to the crowd and felt inspired to do something odd too?

Maybe it doesnt have to be strange to make a difference.

Maybe all you have to do is care.

What I did today v.1

I walked today. Mikey and I walked downtown to meet Chris because he was getting his bike serviced.
I went to bible study. We're studying Micah at the moment. I was a little distracted because Ray had Rookie music on. Actually both Ray and I were distracted, but we are both big Christian music fans. In fact, we're both old-time christian music fans. Amy Grant, Petra, Newsboys.
I practised my flute today for the first time in about a year. I managed to convince Ray to let me borrow his Amy Grant music book. So I practised the songs I knew.

Don't ever tell me you can't do something that I appointed you to do.
I designed you especially for this purpose.
Your life has been leading up to this.
Why are you so afraid?
You may think that you are incapable of achieving it,
But I am still training you.
I am with you, you can do it in My strength alone.
Surely my plans will never fail.
And because you are Mine,
My child who loves Me,
Everything will work out for your good.
Don't be afraid of what I have planned.
Even in the midst of a storm, I will carry you,
Because You are mine.
Be strong little one,
For my purpose will be brought about.
There is never a plan B, C or D.
My plan A is absolutely dependable.
For I am God, I am almighty, I am reliable.
Don't ever tell me you can't do something I have appointed you to do.

confusion is like a smoke wisp wrapping a thick cloud of poison around my heart
disillusion - the state my heart seems to always be in when I fall so hard
conclusion is all I search for some closure to the dark
musin' is the thing i might just have to be doing.

future

future of the light
future of the certain
future of mine and future unburdened

future pure
future for sure
future for His child and future free

future white
future faithful
future for His dear one, and future liberated

Be strong and courageous

-77-

I dont want to despair, but i have to confess: -
That there's one thing i desire, and wonder if God could care less.
I know it's in His plan and I know it is what he wants
But if that is true, why do I stuggle,
And why is it after me it haunts?

It is something I was made for, and yet something i chose,
Something deep in my heart, where no one else knows.
I feel like the dog chasing the hare -
Something that never seems attainable and
It just doesnt feel fair.

I seek and search for it every night.
I cry myself to sleep and can't keep up the fight,
To live as His woman, the girl He planned me to be.
He'll have to show me the way because i am stuck,
I'm lost down the road, my destiny faint to see.

Does He really know what i want, because i tell him 'most all the time.
Or maybe I did something wrong, does he stop listening just because of crime?
Maybe I need faith to show Him I know He's got this planned
I know He does what is right, I can see it from my past.
Is there something else i need to do to keep this fire fanned?

I will rely on what You have done
Not wearily listen to the lies, no, none.
You've proven to everyone what You can do
And it's not my place to disbelieve
Because You will work this through.

A new thing

A new thing You will bring about in me.
A new thing I will see,
Because You make everything new -
Renewal is a blessing I choose.

The blessing I want to be,
The beauty I wish everyone could see.
You make everything glorious -
And that's what I want you to bring about in me.

Help me to believe everything I can be
Just living for You, that's all I want to do.
Please show me today how You can make this true.
Change me and make me anew.

Closer to You

Closer to You, closer to You
Reaching past the mile, past the ocean blue.
Knowing You are there somewhere
Beyond my grasp and beyond my desperate reach
Acknowledging my hunger and thirst for You.
Seeing me in the distance knowing I dont have a clue,
And here I am, standing here dying for that touch
All because I know that with You everything is made new.
Closer to You, closer to You
Until we are no longer two.