Sometimes i feel God is messing something up. Its inevitable that's something is going to go wrong, and if God's in charge where does it leave him? When everything turned upside down in my life was he really hanging on to my heels or did he leave me to crash on the floor, making me pick myself up?
Of course, God's proven he has been in control and that he wants what's best for me. (Romans 8:28 " And we know that in all things God works to the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." I can see that in my past, and yes, i can see that in my future too.
I can see all my mistakes and failures and wonder how on earth God could make all this to bring about his purpose. Then i think how he uses the foolish things to show his glory. He can use a broken heart, he can use all mistakes. His purpose for me is so fulfilling, so perfect. Who am i to say it sucks when i'm not omniscent?
I've been looking at my spiritual gifts. I took a test in my bible, and encouragement really stands out. If God wants to use me via encouragement then fine. I just want to be a part of something big. Something to wake up people, wind them up...whatever i have to do. Seriously how many of us go through a day with virtually nothing to do?
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Hebrews 12:1-5
12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,2 Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.3 For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds.
(KJV) - This verse really motivates me
