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I dont want to despair, but i have to confess: -
That there's one thing i desire, and wonder if God could care less.
I know it's in His plan and I know it is what he wants
But if that is true, why do I stuggle,
And why is it after me it haunts?

It is something I was made for, and yet something i chose,
Something deep in my heart, where no one else knows.
I feel like the dog chasing the hare -
Something that never seems attainable and
It just doesnt feel fair.

I seek and search for it every night.
I cry myself to sleep and can't keep up the fight,
To live as His woman, the girl He planned me to be.
He'll have to show me the way because i am stuck,
I'm lost down the road, my destiny faint to see.

Does He really know what i want, because i tell him 'most all the time.
Or maybe I did something wrong, does he stop listening just because of crime?
Maybe I need faith to show Him I know He's got this planned
I know He does what is right, I can see it from my past.
Is there something else i need to do to keep this fire fanned?

I will rely on what You have done
Not wearily listen to the lies, no, none.
You've proven to everyone what You can do
And it's not my place to disbelieve
Because You will work this through.