God's court of law

1 John 1:9
9If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

John 3:16
16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 3:10
10As it is written: "There is no one righteous, not even one;

God views our sin as a gap between our relationship with him. Because He loved us so much, he bridged that gap by condemning His only son. That would have hurt so much. I'm pretty sure i wouldn't give Mikey to anyone to kill. Nup, i would've have said "Stuff you all -I'm not giving up my son!

As I understand it, God forgives our sins completely. Last night, sitting at 'the lookout' with my friend, we were discussing relationships. He brought up how we often dredge up the past in arguments, and how, in a court of law, it would be dismissed as not being evidence because it's already been mentioned. It's like that with God.

Psalm 103:12
12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

If we look at the compass we can see east is directly opposite west. If we keep travelling east, we will never meet 'west'. It's like how parallel lines never meet. Audio Adrenaline in 'Ocean Floor' say:
"Your sins are forgotten/ They're on the bottom/ Of the ocean floor/ My misdeeds/ All my greed/ All the things that haunt me now/ They're not a pretty site to see/ But they're wiped away/ By a mighty, mighty wave."

I love it how kids come up to you, and shout: "I love you this much!" and you see a pair of arms fly straight out and changes into a quick hug. My friend says: "Jesus said I loved you this much, spread his arms and died". You often hear "I can believe you can i say that you love me, but prove that you love me". Well, God's proof is the cross.

I think about all the wrong things i've done and i need to be reminded of God's forgiveness often. It's easy to just hide the pain and regret and try to stuff it away in the "reasons i suck" box. It takes me a lot of courage to come to God and apologise. It probably shouldn't be that way, one of the things i must work on.

I need to believe that i have been "purified by all unrighteousness". That is hard. I see the consequences of my sin and hide from God. Like Eve. I quickly become bonded to that sin. And how can i hide from God...? dark is light to him. Nothing is hidden from him, least of all, my sins. Oh but His love is so refreshing!

Support groups come in handy. Yes, i have one. Some of you who read this blog are in it. Maybe you know you are, maybe you don't but i appreciate your support anyway. Nothing like a good chat to sort things out. I just need to rely on God for answers more than people, that's a bit of a problem for me.

Coming to God and apologising to him is a little like admitting you cheated on a test to a teacher. (Not that i have been in that situation, but i would find it rather humiliating). It's exposure. Transparency. A dark side. But unlike most teachers who like to make your life hell-on-earth (i've had a few), God reaches out.