Letting down our guard

"She's independent and beautiful
Wish i could be like her
Shes got the girls and the boys
So wrapped around her finger
Rumour is she's some kind of dream,
Nobody knows she cries herself to sleep

We are not that different from each other
We just want somebody to discover
Who we really are when we drop our guard..."

When i first heard "We" by Joy Williams on the radio, i decided it was a 'must-get' song. It related so much to me, and it was catchy. The second part made me really think. "We just want somebody to discover who we really are when we drop our guard...". I thought "wow, it's such a relief to know God knows me for who i am, and i don't have to hide behind a mask." Maybe that's what true friendship is. Not being perfect, but being ourselves and being loved for it!

I strive for that in my friendships. I don't want people to believe i'm somebody i'm not because they're bound to be disappointed. It's so tiring pretending that everything's fine when really, everything's spinning around, totally disorientating you. It's so much easier to say "Here i am -take me as i am, otherwise...uh...stuff you".

One thing i admire in friendships is how others can put up with you. Some events come to mind.

I have an addiction for adrenaline that i only realised in 2004. This addiction makes me want to go on every ride/ rollercoaster possible. So, after dragging my friend around the carnival at the country music festival, getting on the 'rock 'n' roll', my friend and i emerged covered in, no, i'll leave that to your imagination. That's not the only time i've thrown up on her, and it probably won't be the last.

I was on holidays in Brisbane last January and being pregnant (and not knowing it at the time) i had morning sickness every morning. This made my holiday so miserable. My friend noticed my miserableness and asked about it afterwards (and keeps asking). She took care of me, and our friendship grew through that time.