Paul asked me to write up in my blog how i've changed being a mother. Because my night is rather stagnant, and uneventful, i might as well start. There are three main ways i can think of. These are :

*Spiritually
*Practically
*Emotionally

Spiritually i have changed my view about God. I used to think that he was far distant, probably less interested in my life than in others. I realised that he has cared for me, even if it didn't feel like it. This change may have come about because I've had a lot of time to reflect on my circumstances.

Spiritually i have been more receptive to God. I can calm down and rely on him for rest during my hectic day. Looking up at the stars can reinforce peacefulness and then I suppose i'm more then ready to hear God. This change may have occurred because I've come to know that God knows, and cares and His way is best.

Spiritually i don't feel i have to seek God's approval. I don't have to 'do good' just to please Him. God is already pleased with me, however, i serve because i want to. This change happened because i figured God doesn't want me to be 'supermum', he just wants me to be the best I can. He wants me to be 'me'.

Emotionally i don't feel pressured to find someone to love me. I don't need to find someone to love me because i'm already loved. Someone to love me for 'me' has always been there. Why this change? Because through more careful reading through God's word, it's plain to see He's the one that loves me!

Emotionally i don't need to rely on someone to help me. God's always there to help me, and He can do anything. I don't need someone to pick me up all the time. This perspective changed because God has helped me to know that it's okay to feel down sometimes, I just need to talk to Him.

Emotionally i don't feel resentment towards my experience. This experience has taught me so much and has made me grow. If i didn't have this whole experience i may still be trying to skirt around God. I must have changed by just giving this experience to God and letting Him do all the work.

Physically i take better care of myself. I have Mikey to take care of and not taking care of myself is not the best way to go about caring. I take care of myself by eating better, sleeping better and being 'me'. I found this change was important because what use would i be to Mikey if i was sick or tired all the time?

Physically i know i need to be stronger. Not just mentally or spiritually but physically as well. I go for a walk occasionally, dance occasionally and i'm looking for some kind of sport team. I figure Mikey is getting heavier and the fitter i am, the longer i can pick him up and cuddle him. It's also a part of taking care of myself.

Physically i have changed my priorities and timetable, or lack there of. Studying God and schoolwork can take a lot out of my day, and now with Mikey i have to organise my day. I'v tried to do this by a method i like to call 'responsible multitasking', or making use of that time i can so easily waste, but also organise time just to dream, socialise, and live. If i didn't change my organisation skills. ie. no skills., my days would pass me by. Seize the day.

So that's the main changes i have thought about. There are perhaps more that i haven't thought of, but this is just for you to get the general gist of my day/ life. Without these changes, i would be stuck and helpless. I just want to be the best 'me' i can be. A change in life can enhance the journey.