So now you're wondering about my reference to lust. What happened there?

I'm not quite sure, but i can assume when it started. After being invited to my friend's 18th i had previously arranged with a friend that we'd talk together. Not knowing many people, i was glad to hang around this friend. He was ignoring me. So, i was feeling bummed out and lonely, and feeling there's only so much time you can spend with the birthday boy, i decided to leave early.

I was back online that last night with this certain friend, he could tell i was annoyed, so i decided to hide the fact and act cheery. I can't remember quite what i did, i just know that i kind of accepted his invitation to be his girlfriend. And i still have a friend's words ringing in my head: "Don't do anything you will regret". I woke up the next morning and my first immediate thought was: "Oh crap, what have i done?"

I knew i didn't really love him in that way, i guess i just liked flirting with him. (This is the point where everyone who knows me personally thinks: "Is this really mon?"). Maybe a handy boyfriend would be nice but, i'm not quite sure i need a relationship like that right now.

Needless to say, i ended the boyfriend relationship. No real hurt was done. He was thinking the same. After all, it would have hurt more if we kept going. We'll just see where Love leads us.