There's hope you can trust

I never thought that i'd end up in the place where i am today. It seems too far from my youth and yet i have a long time til i reach my maturity. In a matter of about two or three weeks i'll be eighteen and i never thought the day would come, but now i'm beginning to realise how afraid i am of the coming weeks months and even years. Being a young single mother won't be easy and my child won't be put in the best advantage, without a stable father.

Many may view my position as hopeless, an abused pregnant teen, but i'm looking at it from a viewpoint that it's just another spiritual challenge God is going to help me through. I do have a hope, a hope that is founded on God, and though i'm weak, He is strong.

Yes, it hurts, there's a deep throbbing in my heart that in time, God will heal.

Lately i've been reading a book focused on the first 9 chapters of proverbs. "Wisdom from Above" by Leroy Eims. Wisdom appeals to me, many of my friends have it and i just like to soak in it. It's been an interesting book so far. Most of my devotionals seem so trivial now. Devoted to Christian teens who never had much happen in their lives. I guess i'm longing more for God.

One of the most refreshing experiences is when a friend is able to tell you "that happened to me, and i survived". I guess that's why i want to reach out to hurting people. I mean i've always wanted to help people but maybe now i want to help them more specifically.

God has so much planned for me and my baby, a whole new adventure to set out upon. It's just like "The Dawntreader" by CS Lewis but with a more personal outlook. So this is like a new journey, beauty from pain, something to look forward to with great excitement.